This week I've been feeling really anxious about the smallest things and so I really haven't been eating much but I have been drinking lots of water and doing quite a bit of light exercise because it helps when I am feeling anxious, not anything too strenuous just walking mainly. Every time I feel like i'm slipping into a panic attack at school, I just have to walk away and get some fresh air to help myself breathe, I often put in my earphones and play music really loudly, close my eyes and pretend like i'm not in the situation that's making me anxious. I have to say this really does help me calm down, it's only when I'm at home and alone that I can't ever calm myself down because its usually a mix of depression and anxiety and so I lose all my motivation and just sit and cry for hours on end before going to sleep. I think the main reason this happens to me is because i'm scared and not many people know that i'm going through it so for 95% of my day i'm tense and on edge, trying desperately to act normal, like everything is ok and so by the time i'm alone at home, i'm exhausted and confused and everything I've held in all day comes rushing out and I have no way of controlling it.
I know this was a bit of a weird post, I just thought that sharing how my anxiety effects me on a daily basis would be quite fitting today.
P.S. Have you all worn your red buttons today? I have.
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