What I've been up to...

So I just wanted to let you know a little about what has been going in the past couple weeks, just because I want my blog to open and honest and to do that I don't want to hide anything from you.

So I'll start with last week when I was given an informal diagnosis of anxiety and depression. This came about because I was discussing my surprisingly bad exam results and why I did so badly (I got D, E, U for my AS grades). My teacher knew how much revision I had done and extra reading around the topic and had herself marked several past exam papers that I had done in my free time (I got an A on every one). This was when I told her about my nerves in exams, which at the time I though was completely normal and that everyone went through it, and how it made me feel. I described the feeling I got when in exams or even just thinking about exams and she said that she though I might suffer from anxiety and that it surfaced more regularly around exams because of the pressure I put on myself and how much I weigh on these exams. This teacher then sent out e-mails to various member of staff that could help me throughout the school which was how my head-of-year found out and called me to her office to chat about it. She was really nice about it and made it very clear that she was going to get me the help I needed. When talking to my head-of-year, I confessed about my depression and how that made me feel, so she kindly offered to set up an appointment with a therapist that used to work at the school. I will find out this week when my appointment is and what comes of it. I just wanted to quickly make it clear that the reason I am blogging about this is because I have never found anyone who has shared their experience right from the beginning and I thought this might be helpful to someone out there.

On a happier note, I had my first shift at Ice creams and dreams yesterday which was really exciting and they have asked me to come back in today for a few hours!

I hope this post wasn't too serious for you but I feel like I need to try to help at least 1 person out there and if I do, it would mean the world to me.